I find myself sneering with each click of their fancy red buttons

* Delusions (believing things that aren’t true)
* Hallucinations (seeing or hearing things that aren’t there)
* Jumbled or confused thinking and speaking
* Odd and random movements like strange posture
* Avoiding other people
* Trouble showing emotions
* Having very low energy
* Trouble planning and carrying out activities
 
In quiet rooms of shadowed minds,  
Delusions drift like whispered kindness,  
Believing truths that aren't in sight,  
The day blends softly into night.  

Hallucinations flicker too bright,  
A world re-seen, in softest light,  
The phantom voices, the vision near,  
But none can see or hear its clarity.  

Confused, the thoughts, they twist and stray,  
A jumbled thread, lost in the fray—  
Words stumble, scatter, fall apart,  
The tongue betrays the frantic heart.  

With oddest posture, bent askew,  
The body shifts in motions new.  
It moves to rhythms none can see,  
A dance of pure obscurity.  

Alone, they wander, flee the crowd,  
In silence, no more noise allowed,  
The face a mask, emotions thin,  
Yet storms and tempests churn within.  

Low energy, like autumn's deathly fade,  
A soul too tired, too long delayed,  
To plan, to act, to carry on,  this burden 
Each moment feels forever gone.  

And yet, within this hidden space,  
A fragile bloom of quiet
Of  relentless grace.

Can you pause this for a minute?

Why should I pay for these expensive diamonds?
There are these cheaper diamonds, made of gold and hubris that stand up to the Martian atmosphere 
with so much brilliance 

Please take me back to the moon 

When I reached over 
No one was there 
No one was steering this star ship

At least the sun will never explode 

October 15, 2024 SGL Brunswick, ME